thanks for sticking by me and my nonsense all these years.... you helped me to grow..... :0
if you dun know wad i am really talking about and just happen to stumble onto my blog, good luck trying to decipher wadever was written.... to those who know how to "read between the lines".... haha..... keep it to yourself then..... :0
you are so young.... i feel like a p*****hile.... so i'll wait.... wait for you to come of age.... hopefully, you'll be of like mind, and feel the same way.....
you might ask, why do i have so much free time now? haha.... its cos now i'm on a 5-day MC.... sprained my ankle while in church..... haha..... i was leading worship for Powerhouse when i was doing "run run run run in the light" when i turned around and there he was, a small boy, right in my path.... like an innocent bystander in the path of Juggernaut..... IMPENDING COLLATERAL.... haha...... so i jumped out of his way, landed on my toes and *OUCH*..... sprained..... haha..... lucky Ruth was there too..... so not too bad.... at least got someone to cover while i limped off slowly.... :D
to some ppl..... : no matter how much i like you, i know i can never be together with you..... but i dun wan to soil our friendship with this lousy confession of love..... so in my own perverse way like this, let me tell you that i like you alot, but i can't bear to soil wad we already have... rest assured, i will make sure it won't ever disturb you in that way... i've already given it up....
but anyway, life now seems quite meaningless..... quite sad..... i dunno why..... i can be so HIGH one minute and so LOW the next... so full of confidence one day, and lower than shit the next day.... i think i have like this sadistic creature growing inside me, one that thrives on my pain and the pain of others surrounding me..... and worse, its battling the good in me..... GUESS WAD..... i have been been feeding the wrong me..... sian..... when will this end.....
yj..... i still feel like a bastard.... playing with your feelings..... please forgive me..... still allow me the pleasure of your friendship....
CMD sunday was a blast..... with the only blemish that i arrived late for the prayer meeting in the morning.... i guess puntuality is a major issue for me to conquer..... even my charges and wards like chow, seng, ryan, walt, lest, marc are all making fun of me for it..... haha.... i'm sorry..... i'm still trying.... :)
js - my best fren while growing up.... i'm sorry for letting our frenship to detoraite.... allow me a chance to once again be a fren.... not just a stranger.... but a fren.... soccer guys, sorry for psing you all..... accept my apologies....
Oh ya.... speaking of which.... All the best to all the O, A, N level ppl.... do well and score well.... esp my cell ppl.... no matter wad you score, good or bad, you are still you.... :) let no one judge you for being you..... but of course still must try your best la.... :)
ks, wy, sc, ll, rp, jt, ml..... you are and will always be my cell members.... you will always have that little portion of my heart with you all.... haha..... the ATM sessions with you all were worth it..... hopefully you dun find me too abrasive.... haha.... sc and ks esp, you guys have a really special place in my heart..... grow well and live well.... :)
Oh well.... i think i should stop blabbering.... Haha.... here is a vid i found recently.... wad can 4 guys and a camera produce???? haha..... watch and see..... enjoy..... :)
rt, gl.... thanks for befriending me all these years.... :) its been like forever.... i'm really glad to enjoy your company and not have you treat me like a side show freak....
Sigh..... this lonely feeling again..... pls ppl.... dun reject me if i call or msg....
